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Wednesday, February 2, 2011
 I dont know what im running away from.but i do realised that i am running away from reality.In this world,theres only two choices,you either full of love or full of fear. after what ive been trough honestly im totally full of fear.i gave it all but its all been thrown to the trash just like that.ive learned my lesson,not to love someone too much. i never will trust me.Sleepless nights have caused me bad. coudlnt think straight.all i ever think about is you.i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me really.So what am i suppose to do now when im all choked up and youre doing fine? the things you said to me revolves in my mind. and it still affects me till this day. i woke up everyday telling myself im not a good guy.you took the easy way out of the relationship well i have no say and im not gonna judge.excuses after excuses i knew it all along and i thought that youre gonna tell me the truth but no.you ran.i told you what ive been through,you said it was all a lie and none of your concern.then tell me why the fuck i dream about you every fucking day? can i create or plot a dream when im asleep? you took it seriously about something i didnt even mean to do.and i wasnt given the chance to explain.i dont deserve this from you and maybe you realise this. if you dont then im sorry youre one heartless creature.. right now i dont even know if you still remember me or even my name. Its been more than a year,but im still here,cant forgive myself. im still trying to run but all the roads that i went through leads me back to you. sad huh.the damage has been done, i cant turn back time. i dont know how long ill be in this pain. ive lost myself within myself.get it? you like to talk but u cant walk the talk.i tried to hate you but its not working.binget pe aku -.-" |
